For those of you who have read my previous blogs, you know that I was all for breastfeeding! I still am, although sad to say I am no longer doing so.
My second born, Levi will be making four months in just a few weeks! Four months!? And to think, I breastfed him from the very beginning. For some of you moms out there you might think “Wow! Four months? That’s it?”, again in my previous blog related to breastfeeding, this was my first time committing to actually doing the deed. That’s as a mom of not one, but two.
Why did I stop?
Now, let’s be honest. I didn’t pump as often as I had before, but I had never stopped. Recently, my family visited and because we were so on the go, making the most of the little time we had together I wasn’t pumping regularly… My milk production dropped rapidly. I went from producing 4 ounces per boob to 3, to 2, then 1 ounce both boobs combined. While this was all happening, I made sure I drank a ton of water, continued on with a good diet, and even tried out Premama’s lactation supplement but unfortunately nothing had worked.
It was time. Formula was bought and then mixed half-half with the remaining milk we had, to make a safe transition.
At first, I felt a sense of guilt. Breastfeeding will always be best. We all know of the scientific studies conducted that have shown that children are less likely to develop certain health disorders and diseases because of it. When it comes down to it, the action of breastfeeding is our body’s natural way of feeding a baby. The proof is literally in our nature as humans. With all of this in mind, my heart felt broken because I ultimately knew I wasn’t giving my child the best I could.
But, I knew I couldn’t do anything about it. I had to move on, call it a day, and do the next best thing I could: formula feed.
A month later…
Now that we’re fully formula feeding I honestly feel at ease. No more washing a bunch of little pieces that go to the pump, no more waking up at random hours to pump while half awake, no clogged ducts or leaky boobs, I’m happy to be back in a normal bra and feel kinda cute for once! I feel like I can breathe again and that I have more energy because honestly a lot of my time isn’t being invested into breastfeeding anymore.
If I could go back in time and breast feed again with Levi, would I? Yes. It’s all about that bond, the intimacy and closeness that comes along with breastfeeding. It’s so special, and honestly besides all of the amazing health benefits it has for both mom and baby, for me it comes down to the bond. This was my first time experiencing it as a mom of two and if I could go back in time I’d surely breastfeed my first child.
Do you formula feed or breastfeed and why? Be sure to post your answers either here or on my Instagram post!